Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Shone Light Into Human's Heart

This I dedicate to my somehow mysterious gift of helping others and the last lines of the song, Toxicity by System Of A Down (S.O.A.D).

"When I Became The Sun, I Shone Light Into The Man's Heart."

Here's the thing: when did I become the sun? How do I bring light into the man's heart? I haven't even had any large experiences. All I've done is observe; but then again, being observant can make you learn plenty and have tons of common sense.

I'm an eagle. But many see me as a beacon of help. Many come to my tree and ask for my help. They've told me stories that they'e never told anyone, not even spoken to themselves. Rape, family hell, runaways, drugs, murderers, sexual abuse, shelters, relationships, horrid pasts that you can imagine and that you thought you could never imagine someone going to.

They tell me that even though I'm just a guy on the internet, they feel comfortable enough to share their huge secrets with me and ask for help. They tell me stuff that even therapists couldn't be trusted with, at least that's what they say. They believe I'm better than anyone with a college degree. They tell me I always know what to say, even though lots of times, I feel like I'm not helping at all despite the fact that the advice seems to naturally pop out of my mouth.

I love helping people all the time. It's my passion. It's my service to humanity and those I care about, including friends and the love of my life.

But even to this day, I still don't know what makes strangers trust me in me completely. But they all do tell me this: I have a gift of helping human beings. I must keep using it.

What I say is: I won't question it, so I'll keep doing it. But that doesn't mean I won't keep wondering once in a while.

"When I became the sun, I shone light into the man's heart."


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