Monday, June 7, 2010

The Clover Lost Its Leaves

I was gonna give this entry a different title, but the song I'm listening to changed my mind. I give thanks to Metallica and their song, No Leaf Clover. It kinda fits with what I wanna talk about.

I've been hearing some sad stuff this week: my big sis just lost a friend. Well, acquaintance, really, but she still knew this person. She committed suicide. And a friend of her's is about to lose her dad to disease and alcoholism abuse from the past years. So much death to handle.

Then when I thought I was gonna have a relaxing summer where I'd eventually have the honor to work so I can save up to live with my hunniboo, I find out from the bookstore that I supposedely didn't return a book rental, so I owe them money I don't have. And my parents giving me hell for it doesn't exactly help the situation.

And I got a Jehovah's Witness assembly my parents are making me go to with them this weekend. Oh, joy. :(

"Then it comes to be that the soothing light and the end of your tunnel is just a freight train coming your way." (credit goes to Metallica).

But what I wanna tell you all is to move out of the way of that freight train. And keep going till you really do see the light. And once your clover reaches that sun, it'll get back it's leaves. All 4 of them.

The brightside of this is that I'm getting an amazing sharktooth delivered to me from New Jersey in a few days. Wish it was here, though. I also get to go to Mexico in a few days with the family. And best of all, I'm still with the woman I've been in love with for the longest time. And guess what? Today marks two and a half months of being together. :)

P.S: this blogger really needs emoticons.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Back From The Sea

I know my name is Marin, which means water. I know that I love sharks, or at least respect them. But maybe that goes a bit too far, sometimes.

I kinda feel lately like I betrayed the sky. Here's why:

I wear 2 necklaces:

A gold eagle necklace
Sharktooth necklace, one that holds the 2 sharkteeth I promised to my future 2 children, Rowin and Maddox. And I swore on my life they wouldn't leave my neck until they go to my children's necks.

Most importantly, I wear both necklaces as symbols of my 2 favorite creatures, the kings of the sky and sea.

For a few days, my obession with sharkteeth from when I was 12 came back. I used to be addicted to these things, and I still am. I started collecting facts on them, desiring specific teeth like the Great White Shark's teeth, which I know have 6 years later. Had it for the past year or so.

There's one necklace I've worn since I was 12: the eagle. That's one I always kept on. I don't remember exactly what got me in love with these graceful birds, but I know that I wanna be exactly like one, have the ability to morph into an eagle when I need to. I used to imagine that the eagle necklace gave me the power to turn into an eagle.

Anyway, back to the story. I recently aquired 2 fossil shark teeth. One of which will stay with me forever after the 2 other teeth go to my children. But after I put all 3 teeth on, I started taking off the eagle necklace for a few days, thinking that it would be more comfy to carry around the 3 teeth around me. It felt comfy, actually.

But after a few days, I started feeling nostalgic for that necklace. It's my ultimate symbol and dedication to the king of the sky. I couldn't leave behind what I loved the most. So last night, I put it back on. Sure, it made lots of noise clanging with my sharkteeth, but it was good having both symbols back on me.

I love sharks, but my loyalty goes to the eagle who rules the skies. And either way, I'm keeping my promise that these 2 teeth stay on me till our children will receive my gift. And I'm gonna make sure that the eagle never leaves my neck again.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Don't Be A Hooker With A Penis

If you're a Tool fan, you'll see clearly what I'm about to talk about here, or at least what the theme will be.

For those who aren't Tool fans, check out the song, Hooker With A Penis. Hopefully interpretation will be easy. If not, my blog entry for today can help with that.

Check it.

If you wanna give someone advice, go ahead and do that. But in a respectful manner, of course.

I understand you wanna look out for them. That's cool.

Here's the thing, though:

If you don't practice what you preach, then what the heck are you telling me this for? Who are you to be like that? Why are you a hooker with a penis?

You're doing what you preach against! You're no different than the pardoner in The Canterbury Tales!

Some of us are actually getting our stuff together. So don't be telling me not to do the very thing you call me out on when, in some cases, I don't even do that kind of stuff.

Look at you! You don't even have a job, and you can't keep the ones you get, which lots of people wish they could have. Don't tell me about relationships. Look who's still in lack of one.

I know what I'm doing right and wrong, I know what mistakes to avoid the most. So back off, hooker with a penis!